i'm losin'it

URGH!,
I don't care anymore. Once I'm frickin better, I want to start planning on moving up to the Mainland. I want to get as far,far, FAAAAAR away from Hawaii.I HATE being cooped up down here.I'll do whatever it takes to leave.I don't care how difficult and stressful the transitioning up there will be, I just can't take it.Same shit, same routine...what better things to do with my life.I feel SUFFOCATED.Okay,seems like I'm trying to run away from a few things.But why not? I'll only make me feel much,much DIFFERENT.Even though there has been many changes in just a month,I'm still my same,miserable self!.I'm ready for it, making my move one step at a time.